Is life Your Canvas?

Posted by LeeAnn on December 14th, 2009 at 01:55pm

Creativity has been calling me these past few weeks. I had dropped her off and forgotten to give her directions back to my house. Over the past few years I have not given her the attention she is due. Her demands just seemed too great and I didn’t want to disappoint her so I simply ditched her.

Great friend, eh?

I had gotten so caught up in what I thought I was supposed to do because I had gotten confused as to my priority. I had fallen into the trap of helping or fixing rather than remembering my job is to serve…. Serve myself first and in that service, my work naturally flows into service of others.

I don’t think creativity holds a grudge and I believe she will forgive me for wanting to hide. Her conversation with me was something about possibilities and passion. She reminded me that when passion was present life seemed so much more colorful.

I just finished reading Make the Impossible Possible by Bill Strickland. What an inspirational story of simply being committed to what nourishes the soul and following that path! Who knew that our delights and passions were really the door to our dreams and the door of serving others?

I have followed my passions. They have opened doors to my dreams. And I have found that I had gotten a little off kilter. Instead of remembering that my real pursuit was my wholeness, I discovered I had slid in the land of other’s people’s stories. For awhile I gave away my passions to try and fit into someone else’s idea of the path.

I have been trying to take the small painted canvases of my life and fit them together like some kind of a jigsaw puzzle. They seemed fragments and disparate, rather than an intenerated whole. Just recently I realized I needed to select a different medium to express my life as a whole. I have always been drawn to fiber arts and I think the idea of weaving together all my experiences as color and texture would better reflect the story in a new way.

It really doesn’t matter if anyone else sees what I see as I make connections and weave together new meaning; it only matters that I become inspired by my work. My inspiration will lead me to new passions… in that I have faith and trust.

What are your passions? Have you fully surrendered to what compels you?

You are the artist of your life…. How long has been since you gave yourself permission to fully let go into what is calling you?

Until next time…

leeann_sg