Posted by Deb on January 4th, 2012 at 12:36pm
I have in the past tended to learn lessons the hard way. I call it the 2×4 method, one I bet more than just myself is familiar with – you know: you have to be hit up side the head good and hard to wake up to something. Surprisingly the best lesson I have learned over the past 6 months unfolded quietly, gradually, like the gentle rays of the sun on a still fall morning. The message of the lesson called to my heart in a whisper I almost missed.
Frequently I let myself be driven by some tyrant in my head that says I have to accomplish something with my horse every time I visit her. I put a lot of pressure on us both. She sensed my lack of peace. No wonder at times she would act a little grumpy. This tyrant was busy in many other areas of my life as well. No wonder at times I would act a little grumpy.
On one of my most recent visits to the ranch where I board my mare I gave myself permission to just come and sit and soak in the peace and well being that exists in this place I count myself as lucky to be. I parked my behind on the warm, sunny, rustic front porch of the building holding the office, taking in the beautiful view. The snow dusted hills, the river covered with sparkling diamonds, and the small heard of horses looking at me with curiosity filled my heart with peace and joy, at the simple beauty laid out before me. There were a couple of dogs at my feet and one laying his warm head in my lap, all wanting love and attention. I stroked his brown head, letting the tension go. Life is good I thought, with a smile on my face. In addition, I could watch the horses in their paddocks, all standing happy and content. Some were napping off their morning breakfast, standing heads low and eyes half shut, at peace. A few have succumbed to sleep and are stretched out flat for a little snooze. My eyes eagerly search out my girl. She gazes at me, still drowsy and not quite back from wherever horses go when they sleep and dream. I can smell horse poop and hay. All is at peace, all is well.
The lesson that sunk into my heart that morning was how ok it is to be still and do nothing. I did not have to accomplish one single thing. Everything was ok. I looked at all the horses and animals surrounding around me. All were enjoying the early winter‘s warm sunshine. All was at peace. No one had an agenda other than “being”. No one is stressed out because their list is not getting done. I sat on that well loved porch and let that message soak into me for awhile. I sighed deeply with understanding and relief. Message received.
I do not make new years resolutions. If I did, this would be the one: “I will not be ruled by restless activity any longer, both where my horse is concerned and all the other areas of my life. I will take time to sit and nurture my heart and spirit in what ever fashion that may take”. A warm dog on your lap is a pretty good way to start!